This morning as I prepare for church, I started thinking about what we each do to prepare to go into our Savior’s house. There is just so much more than just showering, putting on make-up or getting dressed. When we make up our mind that we will go to church to worship him and to mesh with all the different people God has connected us to, there’s a spiritual shift. We can’t see it and we may not even be able to feel it, but it’s there. Acknowledging this is key, I think. When we recognize that shift, an expectation is birthed. This is not an expectation of people, but of God. In preparation for God’s leading this morning, I opened my heart in obedience and humility. God, I will go where you lead me. I will prefer your will over my own. Then I quietly listened for his word for me. His spirit in me let me know just what I needed to do. I accepted it and turned on worship music to keep my focus on God and his goodness as I physically prepared myself.
The season I have been experiencing has provided me with a consistent mantra of “I choose obedience”. This has proven to be painful and uncomfortable at times. It’s included making decisions I didn’t want to make and letting go of some things I did not want to let go of. Each Sunday (or Saturday for some) when we make the decision to go into our place of worship, we are actually saying, “I choose obedience.” Those three words carry more weight than I ever thought they could. When they are said (or thought) with sincerity and with true humility, a death of self-preference and self-preservation occurs. This may mean that you go somewhere you don’t feel like going. This may mean do some things you don’t want to do. This may mean loving some people you don’t want to love. Regardless, there’s a freedom in obedience and humility. It absolutely makes no sense in this world as the world tells us to be strong, take care of ourselves and let no one run over you at any cost. This is not how God’s kingdom works. And, to be honest, it sucks sometimes. We want to feel like we matter, like we have a voice and we have a right to be respected. But we want to feel this way among people, and this is an error in thinking for a Christ-follower. We do matter, we do have a voice and we are loved and cherished…by our Father who ALWAYS gives us just what we NEED. When we shift our thoughts and perceptions of what people “owe” us to what God provides for us, a priceless transition happens that leads us to “I choose obedience.”
Today as I continue on my journey, I humbly choose obedience. I pray that each of you will do the same. Take the time to prepare your heart in prayer, quiet time and the Word. Connect to a body of followers. Walk forward preferring God’s will over your own. I’m still feeling some of the pain and discomfort from this season, but I can tell you I have never been forsaken. I have never walked it alone. I invite you…join Jesus and me on the journey to freedom, peace and true joy. How can I pray for you to help you on your journey?
In His Grip Always!
©2019 Amanda Bordner